Mirtazapine effects & mood gym *SU Trigger*

[john82]

Thought things were looking up then today I get a message from work just as I was about to walk to the local shop with my partner which has set off my anxiety feeling sick again panicking etc and all it says is can you update me on your situation.

I mentioned 2 weeks ago that my meds had been increased and it'll take a few weeks to see if there working I know it's his job to see how I'm doing and get an update but it just puts the pressure back on, I was aiming to go into work at the end of the week just to try and get in the building and get my chocolate bar like the dr tasked me.

I've sat silent for the last few hours worrying what to reply now

[Paula]

Thought things were looking up then today I get a message from work just as I was about to walk to the local shop with my partner which has set off my anxiety feeling sick again panicking etc and all it says is can you update me on your situation.

I mentioned 2 weeks ago that my meds had been increased and it'll take a few weeks to see if there working I know it's his job to see how I'm doing and get an update but it just puts the pressure back on, I was aiming to go into work at the end of the week just to try and get in the building and get my chocolate bar like the dr tasked me.

I've sat silent for the last few hours worrying what to reply now

I’d say pretty much what you’ve said here - it says it all

[Suzi]

I agree!

[john82]

I finally messaged back said I'm late reply as whenever I get a message from you (boss) it feels like I've been hit by a sledgehammer.

He was great said he just wanted an update and that he's never pressured me etc told him I felt bad like I was letting him down etc.

[Suzi]

That's a great reply from him. Well one for being brave enough to email him the truth about how you are feeling.

[Strugglingmum]

He sounds very understanding. Hope today is less stressful

[john82]

Tried to go into work Friday told my friend I would pop in but as the time got nearer I bottled it. I think next time I'm not going to tell anyone and just try and go in,so that's the aim for this week.

[Strugglingmum]

Well done for not giving up and being prepared to try again!!
Yes might be easier if you feel there is no pressure to appear. Hope you manage it. Its great to have goals.

[Suzi]

Just pop in and buy a chocolate bar or an apple or just aim to park the car, then go home. Next time park and get out of the car and go home. Then park, get out and walk to the door and go home. Then one step inside. Then 2 steps, then build it up. Doesn't matter if it takes all week, one step at a time and make things your choice - not leaving because you couldn't cope, but because you are choosing to go home...

[john82]

Managed to go shopping again yesterday although i panicked alot aldi is just too busy and the constant tannoy announcements were too much.

I'm really annoyed went to the post office today with my partner i walked in and straight away a lady behind a big screen shouted where's your mask? i explained i was exempt and showed them the lanyard i had on to which she said have i a face mask except card.

I was fuming got told she wasn't going to serve me and that i had to leave the shop this is exactly why i haven't bothered going out.

I've emailed the post office complaints and im waiting for a call back hopefully tomorrow but im so angry.