Thanks for the reply's sorry I'm late replying.

Been into work a few times since I last posted which made me feel good.

I wish I didn't feel bad about finding out my friends got engaged,I should be really happy for him it just sets me off panicking. I seem to struggle with friends leaving or moving on ever since school. He's already mentioned that he'll eventually move to live with her.

I'm going back to work on days a week Tuesday starting off on 2.5 hours a day. I'm nervous as it gets closer it'll just get worse,but I know it's something that'll hopefully get easier.

I've got counseling tomorrow I'm a bit worried as after the last session she hinted that it's near the end as my anxiety levels have come down,which worry's me as I'm still having bad day's and it feels like we haven't really touched on why I'm feeling suicidal,I fill the questions in at the start of the session and I always circle I'm feeling suicidal. Where do I go once the sessions stop?.