Hi and welcome to DWD. First off, you are not a burden! I’m sure you’d want to be there for your friends and family if they needed you, and I’m equally sure they’d want to be there for you. Take a look at time-to-change.org.uk - it’s a great website that gives ideas on how to talk to your loved ones about this illness.

With talking therapies like counselling, it can take a few attempts to find the right therapist for you- that may be why you’ve struggled previously. Hopefully, the self referral will be the service that works for you. Has your doctor started you on any medication?