Hi and welcome. I totally understand how you feel. There have been many times when I’ve been desperate and truly believed there was no help for me. But my psychiatrist once told me, very firmly, that there was always a way through. Sometimes it takes trial and error, sometimes it means combining everything you’ve learnt and everything you need to do to get there. It’s not easy, it takes courage, but you can get through - try to have faith in how strong you really are