Hi and welcome. I’ve added a trigger warning to your thread, it’s not a problem, it’s just to make sure members are able to avoid threads they may find difficult.

I don’t know if it’s reassuring to you or otherwise but the things your partner’s feeling are pretty common, and I know I feel that way when I’m in crisis. It’s sort of like all your emotions are put on mute and you’re watching the film of your life without audio and it’s hard to immerse yourself in it itms. I know in my head I knew I loved my husband but felt very little and it felt like he was better off without me. Of course he isn’t and he means everything to me and I’m so glad I didn’t leave the first time I felt like that, but it’s so hard to argue with depression ...

Give him some space, lovely, but let him know you love him still and are there for him.