Quote Originally Posted by Paula View Post
Hi and welcome. Your gp can talk to you about all sorts of ways to help you cope with your mental health - please make that appointment. Can I ask why you came off the meds?
Hi Paula,

Thanks for the welcome.

I came off them because I felt numb and sad and that they hadn't really done anything for me for a long time. Initially I felt a boost. Then a drop. Then they upped the dosage and I felt even more numb. I don't really feel like they helped. They just make me feel nothing, which then makes me feel worse.

I was okay at first but over the last few months Ive felt like my menopause has started (my mum's started when she was really young), which has just made me lose all hope of having a child altogether. To be honest, I can't face trying again anyway in case I miscarry, and so that's it. This is it. This is my future.

I think Im mourning the loss of the child I'll never have.

I know there's adoption, and that has been a serious option on the cards for about 3 years now, but Ive looked into all the process and if you have a history of depression, the chances look pretty rubbish.