Sorry I'm new and need to talk (triggers)

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I have seen a couple of people about it but nothing like a program as the only one the doctor could refer me to I'd have to pay and I don't earn enough money to do that. I do understand the irony of the situation though, if I was to stop drinking I'd have the money. I have tried to stop, slowly as you've said Suzi as I know it could be dangerous to go cold turkey but then that bad place returns and it's all I can do to just make it through another day. Sorry if this is too long

I was the same way with my husband when his depression started, he bottled everything up and I was so worried about him and what he wasn't talking about. I'm so used to helping him that I don't want to seem like such a failure for ending up this way.