Thank you all for taking the time to reply to me. I'm truly grateful.

To be honest I have been put off mental health professionals. I'm keeping on with my counsellor though, she really helps me.

I just feel so emotional all the time and likely to burst into tears at random moments. I think a lot of this stems from my current situation and what I have dealt with over the last year. I find it so hard to get out of bed in the morning. I don't want to die - but I just feel nothing towards life at the moment, and that scares me.

I had a thought at the weekend - some people are just not meant to be happy. And I really feel like one of them.