Hi Tom this is an old cliche things do get better with time. I met my now x husband many years ago he was the love of my life, he split up with me after seven years together. It was a very dark time in my life. The crying lasted for a year, the feelings of abandonment were really intense . Antidepressants made feel worse and the tiredness was something else, in fact I fell asleep in front of the fire and woke up with my dressing gown melted on the fire. Three years later I decided enough was enough and decided to move on. Yes I had relationships during those three years but I only did it go numb my pain.

So he walked back in to my life we picked up were we left off got married and had kids. It was the biggest mistake of my life. The trouble was I loved him but he was nothing more than a shallow person. My life was hell, I was left in a huge amount of debt, he mentally , physically and emotionally abused me. He lost our business and nearly my home.

There are times when I have wobbles and I love the person he was when I first met him but now he is a parasitic human being who will have chosen his next victim. How he went from being a nice person to an abuser is beyond me.

This story is not meant to make you feel depressed it's simply to say I have learned some very hard lessons in life.
Ex's are Ex's for a good reason although you don't see it at the moment. Don't be too hard on yourself as everyone grieves in different ways, after all there is no time limit on grief.

I have been on my own for the last six years and I take each day as it comes. All I can say is keep going out, meet new people and make sure you have treat days. I really do understand the pain you have in your heart and it will lessen with each month that passes.