Really struggling today was meant to be going to a conference I can't face it just now . Might feel better and go to afternoon session of it. But I'm just choc full of guilt and sadness and worry that I can't move . I feel empty . I need to do something to get me out of the house but I feel safe and warm here . What would I leave. I'll walk the dog around the block shortly. Feel on the edge of breaking down all the time. It's like all the stuff I was pretending wasn't there is all coming out at the same time . I feel a failure and that I'm letting everyone down and my anxiety is paralysing me.