It’s more hurt, betrayal and confusion than anger.
Although, who wouldn’t be angry at being treated so appallingly for no good reason?

The actions of these people destroyed every part of me; my happiness, my confidence, my trust, my entire reputation. Nobody will touch me with a bargepole because of things they have ‘heard’.
And then to alienate others, ensuring I have no friends.
Absolutely despicable. It’s not the first or last time it’s happened to me, but it was the worst, most painful, most unexplained and dragged out.
So please don’t patronise me... I have good reason to feel the way I do.

I’ve tried everything offered!
CBT twice (most recently last year), multiple types of counselling, exposure therapy, DBT, and others including ‘art therapy’, which did absolutely nothing.

I’ve been on Citalopram, Mirtazipine, Sertraline, Fluoxetine... None of which worked, and I do not want to be medicated again, just like I do not want therapy again.
Nothing works.

But discussing my past treatments is not why I’m here. That’s very personal to me and I don’t like to talk about them because they failed, therefore I failed.