Sorry, when I said "Which should be obvious", I was referring to the redundant words in the previous sentence. I'm sorry if I came across as rude.

Today I thought the meeting was cancelled due to more people not being available, but another representative from HR was present, so we had a discussion about how I'm feeling.

Strange thing is, minutes before the meeting was due to start, another 20 jobs came in on the electronic fault log in the space of a few minutes and I cracked; I only saw the first 10 or so before the meeting and while shouting obscenities at the monitor I decided to leave my office and head down for the meeting.

We talked about how I felt anxious about my workload and that I was ready to handle the workload as it was this morning, but then when several jobs came in at once from the same person I was ready to self harm again, even though I had removed all but the bare minimum of medicines from my work bag.
They felt that I was in no state to continue working and called the crisis team on my behalf, who suggested I go to A&E.
Before I left work, I saw the rest of the jobs, which had effectively tripled my workload in the space of a few minutes, but since I was leaving the premises I thought there'd be no need to think about it for the time being.

At A&E they asked about my sinuses, then realised they were looking at the wrong notes and I had to wait another half an hour for them to get the right paperwork. We talked considerably longer than that when they were ready and they've recommended that I find alternative work - a conclusion I am already working on - but they reassured me that if the other technicians in other branches are being treated for anxiety and / or depression, it's being caused by poor management rather than being a problem originating from me.

Work aren't expecting me in for the rest of the week, but I can't shake the feeling that when I go back on Monday there'll be a huge list for me to wade through, since the last time I had time off for anxiety I came back to a slightly longer list even though someone had been covering for me.

I'll admit, there have been times when the list has been in excess of 30 job long, but I've not known it to grow this fast. What happens if it continues?