Obey your manager. If there’s a system and they’re failing to adhere to that, then they’re failing, not you. And, actually, it’s not fair on you to be expected to carry out Work that’s not been officially requested or be expected to log it yourself. These systems are in place to enable you to do your job efficiently, they shouldn’t be sidestepped

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