I find it difficult to imagine a crash may come when I am like this.
And yet your most recent crash was just a couple of months ago. If that had been a couple of years ago, then maybe you could afford to be more complacent but it wasn’t, so you can’t. Sweetie, you have to start being honest with yourself
The purpose of life is not to be happy. It is to be useful, to be honorable, to be compassionate, to have it make some difference that you have lived and lived well.