Paula - that's what Marc said to me. One day I told him I loved him and he told me that while he didn't feel that he loved me, he didn't feel anything. He knew that he had loved me before he crashed and he didn't think that would have changed, but he just didn't feel it. The same for our children. It hurt so much, but I knew that I had asked for honesty, I got honesty. So I told him that I loved him and our children enough for both of us and we'd carry on that way until he did know one way or another. That's what we did... and now he says that he loves me enough that he'd die for me.....