Hi Hunni and welcome. You’ve had an awful lot of change happening all at once and have also lost what sounds like your strongest support in your family. I know there’s phones/Skype etc but, as I’ve recently found out, it’s not the same. Please don’t beat yourself up for struggling, anyone would.

Have you seen your doctor? If you haven’t, please make an appointment as soon as you can. As for your partner, it doesn’t sound like he’s really treating you the way you deserve, lovely. Respect is vital in any relationship ....