Hi I have unwanted feelings a lot, like wanting to cut my hair off or self harm in horrific ways. I dont feel in control of anything in my life or in where my life is going and I just want to quit my job and uni and get on a plane going anywhere (preferably Spain has I can speak some Spanish and it's warmer there lol) never talk to anyone again, change my name, clothes everything, and leave everything behind. Except my bunny. But everything and everyone else, family friends ex's memories good and bad, I can't stand being in my own skin at the moment or in my mind and have this massive urge to just get out however I can even by dying, just so I'm free.