I have no idea. The times I have gone out, my mums started with the "what if I need you" lines so I've given up. I find it very difficult going in to a group of people unless I know them. I still find it hard walking into the hotel bar in Manchester and I've known most of them 15 years. The only time my sister bothers with me is to send me pics of my niece, she's happy with her little family and loads of friends, and my brother never bothers with me unless I text him first, besides, he's got a new gf. I tried to make an effort to build bridges with my old friends and wasn't even worth a response. They assumed the worst of me, despite knowing me for a decade. They never once thought there might be something more to me withdrawing.

Is there any wonder I think people will be better off without me?