I loved my first car! It was an old metro in poop colour brown, manual choke, shook when it got to 60 but I adored her! I was devastated when I came out of halls to find that someone had smashed into her and there were bits of her all over the road. I had to get the uni's security guards to deal with it... That car cost me £180!
You have my complete faith and encouragement. I know you can do this and you didn't step up to be dead weight, you knew it wasn't going to be easy......