Hi there and welcome to DWD.
As the other lovely ladies have explained we have trigger warnings to protect you and others from things that they may not feel able to talk about right now. It's not a negative, it's actually pretty positive and given time I'm sure you'll see that too.
I know that forums can be a bit hit and miss, but we're very overprotective here so I can honestly say this is a safe place to talk... But please, try not to be so defensive, no one here is against you - we all have our own understandings and experiences of depression and mental health illness - many of us have been where you are now.