Nope = no meds at all - which is the crux of the problem.

My med history to date goes like this...

Citalopram - left me like a zombie. No emotion whatsoever. No personality. Dead, but biologically alive - tried for a few months, but terrible.
Fluoxetine - kind of helped with depression about 50% but not the anxiety and gave me terrible, intolerable sexual side effects - used for a few years but was affecting my marriage and the side effects causing all sorts of other issues leaving me miserable and depressed.
Mirtazapine - Great for anxiety, but no use for depression, also made me very angry, irritable and horrible to live with, whist still being depressed.
Venlafaxine - Terrible allergic reaction to this so couldn't continue beyond one pill. Was almost for calling an ambulance. Like a junkie going cold turkey.
Sertraline - Sexual side effects kicked in before anything else and even worse than fluoxetine so knocked it on the head shortly after.

I've been off the meds and trying to cope for 6 months now, spiralling out of control, hence I had to relent and go and see the Doctor - hence I'm now in the system waiting for further treatment without meds.

My GP admitted that I clearly am one of those people that does suffer the sexual side effects of SSRI/SNRIs, therefore there's no point trying another half a dozen varieties of the same type - they just don't work with me.

One might argue, well surely not being depressed is better than having to live with sexual side effects? Maybe for some, not for me.

Without getting into too much detail as we've all got imaginations - the side effects aren't something that Viagra could help with, that isn't the 'problem'. The issue is that all sensation, feeling, enjoyment is missing. That then results is no end game or enjoyment overall. This is tormenting, frustrating and such an issue to me and my marraige that it makes me depressed, angry and utterly miserable - catch 22. Why such a big deal for me - we're back to the tap dancer who has their feet amputated to cure their sore hips scenario.

Effectively I've not found a drug(s) that treats my depression and anxiety without intolerable sexual side effects..... which isn;t actually true - I've found a drug that 'might' do all that as it has for many other around the world - Wellbutrin (Bupropion), but as we know, not available in the UK via GPs and must be prescribed via secondary care, which is where I am now... with my fingers and toes crossed.

I'm aware that even if my psych agrees this is something to try, that it might not work for me and have an open mind about other possibilities.

But no, no meds at the moment, hence I'm in such a state.