Hi Alexis and welcome. I had my first bout of depression when I was 16 and didn’t talk to anyone about how I was feeling. It was another 11 years before I finally admitted there was a problem, and only because my mum frogmarched me down to the doctors. I’ll never know if I could have prevented further issues if I’d have got help sooner but I do know that I would have coped much, much better if I’d have had the support of my friends, family and doctors. As a mum (my eldest is about your age) I was devastated when we found out my youngest was struggling and hadn’t wanted to tell us because she didn’t want to make things difficult for me. Believe me, your mum would feel the same