i've been so busy lately I haven't had a chance to even think about all of this as I've worked late every day since my exams last week and will be right up to christmas eve...I couldn't tell my boyfriend in the end, his best friend and our flat mate is going through some stuff too and he's so stressed about him at the moment there really has not been a good time to talk about me so i'm thinking it will have to wait until the new year. I'm just so worried he'll look at me differently after it.