I'm at work tomorrow and Monday x2 12 hour shifts. I'm dreading it. I went to primary care centre late Wednesday night cos of heart palpitations but the doctor just said I've got extreme anxiety now. I can't afford to stay off work. I'm moving into my own house on Halloween after being back at my dad's for split with ex.

She has a lot of anger at me and I've got a lot to myself. I've treated her shockingly. I'm so regretful. I hate my life. I've had such a craps life. Homeless from 16-19 and then she came along and worshipped the ground I walked on and I did to her too. Why did this depression come to me when my life was the happiest and had everything I ever wanted? Why am I not meant to ever be happy. It's hard taking it day to day. My mind won't stop. Every day feels like a week. I'm just tired of being here.