hi Katie and welcome. I’ve added a trigger warning as you’ve mentioned suicide. It’s nothing to worry about, it just ensures other members are aware there may be something discussed that may cause triggers.

You’re doing a great job! You really are dealing with this as well as anyone could. You’re right, while you can appreciate that some of your husband’s behaviour is due to his depression, that’s no excuse for treating you badly and he needs to know that. You’re treading a fine line between being supportive while not being trampled on - I know that must be hard.

Magie is right in that it may be worth talking to your doctor and asking for support