Setback *Triggers* *SU SH triggers*

[Paula]

Just in case I haven’t told you lately, I think you’re awesome!

[JustEM]

Hey Suzi,

Yeah, better to get the emotions out than hold them all in.

Aww, I'm sorry to hear you've been in so much pain. At least you know things are moving forward though and that the future can only mean you'll be feel stronger. Hope you feel better soon!

I'm not working there, no. I went there last week with my mother to give the donation from my fetes and in front of my mam told the manager I had anorexia and that working in the kitchen was too triggering. She told me several times to keep in touch and to let them know when things change. She said she won't put me anywhere near the kitchen! I saw all the staff there and they were lovely. The CBT therapist said on our first meeting that she could see how 'All or Nothing' I am. I did too much too soon, so the plan is to return there to volunteer slowly.

I think the first thing really is the need to sort my mood out by getting the right meds. I need a focus too, but there's little motivation. I have a new crafts idea to do another springtime fundraiser for the homeless again.

Hope you've been feeling better today xx

[Paula]

I am so relieved to see you write that - I completely agree with your therapist. I know it’s hard, it’s taken me years to learn how to take things one step at a time and, even now, I get it wrong. You’re so brave, intelligent, strong and you will get to where you want to be

[Suzi]

I completely agree with Paula - you are AWESOME!

[JustEM]

Awww you guuuuuuys!!

Thank you. You are all so amazing too!!!

Yes Paula, better to start slow and work up and sustain it than jump in at the deep end, do well and then crash. Going slower can get me steadily from A-Z whereas rushing things only gets me jumping back to A all the time to start over which is exhausting!!

Thanks for your advice. I'm pleased that you've been able to recognise this and establish it into your life. That's impressive, inspiring, positive and encouraging and shows you're self aware, sensible and strong.

Hope you're having a good day all xxx

[Suzi]

What are you up to today? Staying warm I hope! It's flipping freezing here!

[JustEM]

Proper freezing here, too!! Just got in and blasted myself with the hairdryer for instant warmth hahaha! Going to heat up some hand warmers I had for Christmas.

Had a lovely relaxing morning - lots of pampering and used my new electric neck and back massager whilst listening to some hypnosis and relaxation CDs. Then watched a spot of FRIENDS and did some writing. Just got back from a nice walk down the beach and up town and had a chat with my auntie. Looked everywhere for some canvases to do some painting but had no success so I'll probably just finish off my book tonight.

Quiet day really. Just working on lifting my mood.

You had a nice day? X

[Paula]

I’m in awe of anyone who can paint, draw etc - that is so not my area of expertise. When I was studying reflexology, our homework one week was to draw a foot so we could jot down all the reflex points. Mine was so bad, my tutor told me to photocopy someone else’s @

[JustEM]

Hahaha, thanks Paula! I'm actually a bit crap at drawing! It's why I'm so good with acryllic paints.... Because I can paint over and over it no problem! Haha!

Bet you gave the best foot massage though, right?

I'd still love to learn more about massage. I'm really into all of that.

Have a good night xx

[Paula]

Reflexology is actually more closely connected to acupuncture than to massage - a therapist works on the points on the feet, lower leg, ears or face that correspond with different areas of the body to try to help the body heal itself naturally.

I did, However, qualify as a Holistic Therapist doing massage, Indian head massage and Hopi ear candling along with reflexology.. reflexology was my love though