Setback *Triggers* *SU SH triggers*

[JustEM]

Hope everyone is as well as they can be right now!

Little post on the ups and downs...

Tried out the Mind groups and the mental health drop-in centre. Both weren't actually for me for totally acceptable and rational reasons (I'm not making excuses, honestly! ) but I'm glad I went and tried them all the same. It's good to see what support works best for us each as individuals.

Managed to pick myself up from a major stressor regarding my appointment with my dear OT on Monday that was escalated by a very rude GP yesterday who made me burst into tears! I'm still going to allow myself to feel anxiety before things that stress me out and to allow myself to feel anger after things that upset me BUT I'm now feeling committed to LIMITING the time that I spend doing this so as not to let others' actions completely ruin my day. A difficult concept to put into practice but it's most definitely something I feel committed to really trying to do! I'm also feeling committed to stopping beating myself up so much all the time and to focusing on the positives much more. Like yesterday, okay I spent the whole day in bed in self-pity and misery BUT there was a time that I spent many days that way and now I only had one... and then I got up and showered and went out and was up and out early this morning again. Little victories.

I saw my CPN care co-ordinator today. She's so lovely and totally reassured me about the whole hospital thing. Turns out she'd been having her own issues with the OT behind the scenes and she also didn't understand why they were threatening me with hospital and tube feeding. (She did still refer to my BMI as 'a sh*tty BMI' though and encouraged me to get it up a tad so I can start CBT focused on my depression next month.) I've also maintained my weight (no increase yet but at least no loss) and my bloods weren't of much concern this week either so things generally are looking better that way. Hopefully I'll have a smoother appointment with the OT on Friday. I don't want it to feel like a tension all the time!

I also got the job too - I start Friday!

Take care everybody! Happy Wednesday! x

[Paula]

That's such a fantastic post! Well done Em