Nah, not the lurgy. Would probably prefer it if it was though!
Just woke up feeling reeeeeally low. I get times when my depression completely takes over. It's like an outside force of doom pushing down on me. My mind goes blank, I can't think straight and I feel cloth-headed. The worst part is, it can come on suddenly and there's absolutely nothing I can do to beat it.
I just feel a bit hopeless about getting well sometimes, like it's never going to happen. I've got a long road to recovery and the enormity of how that feels in itself is enough to get me down.
The AD meds have helped to 'still' my mind but the mood just isn't lifting. So many negative self-destruction thoughts filling my head today and anxiety about getting weighed tomorrow.
Shouldn't be moaning I know, I just want my mood to improve. It started 18 months ago and from last year it just got worse and worse. I'm fed up of being fed up and not being able to beat it.
Sorry for grumping x
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