It's something that has affected me too and it took many years to be able to tell anyone what had happened to me. I'm not proud - but I am proud that I got through it and learnt to trust someone else.. That's why we have a very closed section, because of the shame, the stigma - the "oh you must have done something to provoke it" or "it was different then, it is just what happened" or "well, I had worse happen to me and I just got on with it"...... It's something that people are so afraid to talk about for one reason or another and it's something that I feel very passionately about.
Check this but it might make you cry:
If anyone does feel that they need access to the Abuse Survivor Section then please do pm me, but I am strict about who has access for understandable reasons.