I need a bit of a confidence boost *trigger*

[The_Scientist]

How are things today? Have you spoken to the hospital and found out what it was all about?

I concluded eventually that it was the renal unit asking if im free for a rourine appointment. Only they havent booked anything and have no record of having called. So i cant be bothered anymore. I choose to believe it was an elaborate april fools joke.

[Suzi]

Why on earth would anyone play that kind of thing as an April's fools joke?

[The_Scientist]

Why on earth would anyone play that kind of thing as an April's fools joke?

God knows. Ibviously they wouldnt but its currently more logical than the truth.

[The_Scientist]

So im applying for phd, and looking at flatshares in the meantime. If i get the phd ill stick in the current house and sav, pick up some tutoring or busking to get some extra cash. Might do that anyway.

Been a bit melancholy lately, and feeling like ive been selfish demanding so much attention when im not able to give as much back.

[Paula]

Well done for taking steps to improve things

[Suzi]

Well done for working hard to change things..

[The_Scientist]

I feel like i need some looking after atm. Not someone to wait on me or do things for me, just some proper pastoral care, that no one seems willing to.give. Maybe im just whining. Am i even allowed to feel like that? I just feel like im having to deal with so much and everyone expects me to just deal with it because they dont know the full extent of it or they think i have support from.elsewhere and i just dont. Im not confident i can really look after myself properly atm.

[Paula]

Have you contacted your local Mind?

[Suzi]

Have you spoken to those around you about how you are feeling? What about speaking to your Dr about it?

[The_Scientist]

Have you spoken to those around you about how you are feeling? What about speaking to your Dr about it?

Ive spoken to a few friends, but theyve not been very sympathetic or helpful. I mean, one of the things bothering me is that im now the last person in the group to live at hme or have a proper job, and while i dont want to conpare myself to other people, its difficult not to sometimes, and im certain that they'll all just be unbearable now. Plus the eye thing is really bothering me lately.