Tbh i don't really know exactly. I haven't really been right since i came back from Bournemouth. I guess it's the same as it's always been. I need some attention, some love, some care, but everyone's too busy or have more important things and people to attend to. I dont mean that in an attention seeking kind of way. Just that i dont feel like i have anyone i can really rely on. And as much as i want to be able to just rely on myself, I can't. Im so beat down by the weight of things that have happened to me and the fact that no one's ever there that i cant even work up the motivation to change anything.