Thanks all. I did actually consider calling the samaritans, but without leaving the house theres no way i wouldnt be overheard, and id got to a point where i couldnt even leave my bed. Im still trying the drs, no joy so far.

Ive been looking at PhDs today. Found a couple that interest me, though i have my doubts about the study species. Not sure how much of a factor that should be.