Hi and welcome. I've added a trigger warning as you discuss suicide.

I'm sorry you're feeling so bad. We always recommend talking to your GP about how you are feeling. Do you have any family or friends who you can talk to? Can I ask what meds you tried and why you stopped taking them? Have you tried any talking therapies?

It's ok if you don't want to answer. We will be here to offer support for as long as you feel you need it.