You have an addiction, nobody is going to judge you because of that, and that will affect how you feel. Alcohol and depression go together so when you break that addiction hopefully the depression will ease. But with any addiction you need the right help to break it. So you haven't overcome it yet. This time might be different. We are here to give you support and pick you up when you fall. Try and make it work this time. PS be a little bit kinder on yourself. Steve.