Time Passing By and Fear of Failure *Triggers*

[selena]

I've been at CBT session and feeling very relaxed.

[Paula]

That’s great to hear

[Suzi]

That's great! Are you going every week?

[selena]

Wishing everybody on DWD Happy New Year!

All of you are very very special to me, the people I've met here showed me empathy and love, encouraged me in my daily struggle and literally to mentally survive.

Hope a calm and lucky year for everybody!
Hope one day meeting you!

[Paula]

Hope the coming year is better than the last for you, hunni

[selena]

Unfortunately not. But hope I'll sort it out.

[Suzi]

Oh no why not? When are you going next?

[Suzi]

The same to you lovely x

[selena]

Do you think a man can accept me as I am (from mental and psychological point of view)?

I mean a depressed woman.

A female colleague's words hurt me (although there was no hint about me). That men like smiling, dancing and jumping women, others cannot make them interested.

But I'm as I'm, not permanently jumping, smiling etc. I cannot fake to catch someone's attention.

[Suzi]

Selena, I don't wish to be rude, but you seem to think that there are lists of reasons why someone wouldn't be with you - you've never stopped to say about what what you want in a person.
There is no reason at all that someone wouldn't want to be with you. Stop making excuses and do things that mean that you will be able to get and meet real men! Join a choir or a gym or a chess group or whatever, just stop hiding away. Stop listening to all the rubbish and horrible things that those around you say and get out and live... Do something different from work and beat yourself up!