Time Passing By and Fear of Failure *Triggers*

[Suzi]

Can I ask why?

[selena]

I'm waiting for my salary and then it will be possible to make an appointment, it will likely be in two weeks as it's not covered by medical policy.

[Paula]

Suzi’s right. I get that you need pay but, when that happens, you really do need to see someone. You need to be as physically and mentally strong as you can right now

[Suzi]

Oh OK that makes more sense! Hope you get that appointment lovely, do try to make it a priority.

How are your Mum and your Grandmother?

[selena]

Yes, you are both right.

My mum is better, but she is very stubborn and tries to be too active, and grandma is fine.

[Suzi]

Your Mum sounds as stubborn as me

[selena]

Today they have taken blood tests from vein and my arm has some horrible mark as result, like inner blood clot. I got scared, not talking about my mom, now feeling better.
But I will get to know some results by next week.

My boss is not the worst, but certainly a strange person, mocking of people and later making them gifts (although after my mom's illness, she became more patient). So she arranged for me a surprise - ticket at the cinema for premiere of "Murder on the Orient Express".

[Paula]

I always get bruising from blood tests as my veins are very narrow and hard to find - and I have to have them at least every 3 months. The marks disappear, I promise

[Suzi]

Wow! That's a lovely surprise from your boss!
I've only just had a bruise go after my operation - over 3 weeks ago! It's totally normal to get bruising after a blood test lovely x

[ophelia]

hugs if wanted.

I can't believe where 2017's gone, and I can't believe that most of the year's been wasted.. with me accomplishing nothing.

I always say the next year is worse than the previous, and I do fear failing at life

getting old and having nothing to look back on..