I took my first dose yesterday and have taken my second this morning. Feeling a bit less worried about it all today especially after reading your replies.

Things with my partner have become extremely complicated, and this is one of the main reasons I've finally sought help. We've been together nearly 5 years and in that time I have always had episodes of low moods, pushing him away, struggling to let myself feel close to him and the already mentioned low sex drive. I can also be very critical and when we argue I find it hard to control my emotions. He also finds it difficult that I cope with different aspects of my life by compartmentalisng, so for instance I would always rather see my friends without him, where he's much more of a 'we come as a package' kind of person.

Things came to a head in Feb this year and we ended up barely speaking apart from some pretty heated arguments for around 6 weeks. In this time he began to see someone else.

I couldn't even tell you where we're currently at. He's no longer seeing this person, however we both have reservations about our relationship continuing for obvious reasons. My trust in him has taken a huge knock and he doesn't think I will do anything to look at the way I've behaved in our relationship or deal with my depression.

No idea where things will go with us, but despite all of that I know that I really need to sort myself out for whatever comes next, and if this has been the catalyst for me finally admitting that there is something I need to sort out then at least I've found the silver lining!