Anxiety & Depression Hell..*TRIGGERS*

[Paula]

I understand being close to your mum. I'm 41 and my mum and I are best friends. I've always turned to her straight off for help and support. However, one year ago my mum and dad moved 7 hours drive away to Northumberland. I was devastated, as a lot of people here will attest to. My husband, however, was convinced it'd be good for me, that I was too reliant on her. One year on, and I can see he was right. We're still close, and speak to each other a lot, but I've managed without her, have become much more self sufficient and, though I still wish they hadn't moved, I've survived!

You might surprise yourself how you cope without her, after all it's what we're supposed to do - leave and make our own lives

[SA89]

I wish I was never born. All my life I've been a passenger to every1 elses happiness. Its easier for people who have friends or a relationship because they have a support system. Loners don't have that reassurance to keep them goin.. I've looked after the house often while my mum was away & I didn't like bein completely alone at all. I have so much hatred towards my 'brother' but that doesn't mean I wanna move. Most people in this needy society would not be able to cope without friends, affection. I've been strugglin without that ALL MY LIFE, & people wonder why I'm the way I am (timid & vulnerable). These socialites would be exactly the same if their needs of love weren't bein met ..

[Suzi]

If you are feeling genuinely like you wish that you hadn't been born then you need an urgent review by your Dr and to push for more help. If you are in any danger of hurting yourself or others then please get to the nearest A+E department, call the samaritans or crisis line..

[rose]

I think you think everyone else is having a great time, socialising, meeting people, but its not the case I assure you.

Several pages ago you said you have trouble at work tying knots and you need help with that. Do you mind me asking, are you actually able to work full-time, what qualifications did you get at school?

[SA89]

ye I'm perfectly capable to work, just jobs r scarce so I'm stuck in fast food for now. I get about £130 a week with that & my universal credit. I got pretty bad grades (lots of E's & F's), I'm bad at everythin apart from English & IT (C&D). U can tell just from my posts that I have quite the vocabulary . I'm prob dispraxic with my shoelaces, swimmin etc. And Suzi I've asked my GP countless times for a proper diagnosis, he says the same thing everytime; that its social anxiety stemmin from shyness when young & my 'medium level' depression is a result of that .

[Suzi]

Then you need to ask for more help - maybe a referral to the CMHT if you are thinking such dark thoughts.

[SA89]

Tonight was really weird, I was invited around some girls house who I literally just spoke to for the 1st time 2day on facebook. Anyway when I met her she was on the phone all night to various men pesterin them to visit her. I was sat at her table in disbelief while her & her friend chatted away on the phone for hours to random guys. Like why even invite me in the 1st place?. I seriously don't get the thinkin behind some people. I spent £10.00 taxi fair in total there & back as well ..

[matt]

That must of been awkward i would of thought of a excuse to leave lol. I guess there just after attention from guys seeing as there inviting guys over the same day they first talk to them...

[Suzi]

That is weird!

[Paula]

That is odd. Why did you go?