Anxiety & Depression Hell..*TRIGGERS*

[SA89]

Why do you think you're not in their circle? Is it because of their attitude or is it because you pull back? If there's an office do, do you go, for instance? Do you chat around the coffee machine?

Bit of both, the majority who wrk there r ur typical 'jack the lad'. When I did a counseling course briefly last yr I found a connection somewhat with the students. In fast food its ur typical army type mentality, people banterin about football non stop & makin sex jokes to the girls etc. I take the p i s s as well (helps day go faster) but I'm always on hand to help people out & I make sure to involve other shy people when I'm speakin .

After 4 yrs in 1 place its clear there's a divide between the introverts & extroverts. I'm kinda in the middle 'caus I'm friendly to every1 yet really awkward at the same time. Its the same everywere really, the introverts r kinda just pushed to 1 side (sorry if I'm ramblin ).

[SA89]

if any1 reading this thread has difficulties socialisin like I do I've found this to be invaluable http://www.succeedsocially.com/. Covers everythin

[Suzi]

Do you do anything for fun?

[SA89]

Do you do anything for fun?

Gamings the only fun I get. I'm desperate for a change in working environment but jobs r scarce without experience. I'm never gonna move forward in this place, doin the same s h it for 5 years on top of not fittin in..
Theres no point to life without friends, relationships. I don't want to continue my life being alone. 25 yrs of insecure misery, thats evidence enough that its not gonna get better. I'm not cut out for this world ..

[Paula]

But you've been in your current job for 5 years, so you have that experience. Have you considered doing some training to broaden your horizons?

[Suzi]

SA89 of course you're "cut out for this world"... We aren't all the same, we don't all like the same things and we react differently to each experience. It doesn't mean that some of us are more "cut out for this world" than others at all.

You do have experience - maybe you need a change of scene? What kind of gaming?

[Samantha340]

Theres no point to life without friends, relationships. I don't want to continue my life being alone. 25 yrs of insecure misery, thats evidence enough that its not gonna get better. I'm not cut out for this world ..

I dont know anything about your life, but just one question: Not at least one friend in school?
And there is no evidence that the next 25 years will be the same, unless you can predict the future, which would be brilliant, so you could give me the winning Lotto numbers.

I know you think, the last 25 years were awful therefore the rest of my Life will be the same, BUT there is no evidence for this. Yes it might be the same if we dont put the hard work in to try changing our lives (new job, new hobby, new friend), but a new hobby will lead to meeting new people and who knows who will cross your way. (Just my opinion, after having a great day. I put my worries far away and just went out to meet some friends, concentrated on them and actually managed to enjoy myself.
Lately, I have been the same as you, I am not made for this world and everything is sh**. Changing this thinking is hard work, but concentrating on positive things does help. And believe me, those positive things are only small things, like getting a smile back from a stranger)

[SA89]

Thanks, I really appreciate the support . My head is so f u c k ed up, it feels like its impossible to re-program. Its funny 'caus at my mental health voluntary I'm capable guidin people to the right direction but not myself. I may just jack in these meds 'caus whilst thy may work in the background somewhat, I just wanna sleep all the time. They hinder motivation & i've been on a few types.

Need to weigh up if being more tired but less anxious is better than vice versa. The only way to be free of this lastin misery though is to have a gf to share my life with. That opens up so much possibilities and gets u out to exciting places. I'm desperate for that assurance of havin a partner by my side. I can't enjoy this life by myself, its so depressin & 'empty'. Just me & the internet every soddin wakin day. The only medication I need is love .

[Paula]

Please do not just jack in the meds. Going cold turkey is extremely unpleasant and may set your mood back significantly. If your meds aren't doing the trick, please discuss alternatives with your gp. There are many different ADs out there and sometimes it is a case of trial and error - it took a long time for me to get the correct combination of meds but we got there in the end. Additionally, there are alternatives to meds, or things you can use together with meds. Counselling, CBT etc. please go to you doctor and talk things through

[Suzi]

I completely agree with Paula, go and talk to your Dr..