Things are OK for me but it has taken forever and I'm angry with myself. I wasted so much time not understanding it was my job to take responsibility for sorting things out. I thought it would just happen somehow. Then I made a terrible mistake to study at a bad college and it lead to several years of hardship. I put everything in that.
Now things are back on track to go back to school. Getting an education is my life goal. But what is the point now. What good would a degree do with nowhere to really go? I've already lost everything that matters. Years of going from town to town usually broke and always alone. Wasting opportunities without knowing or seeing them fall away just out of reach. When I take charge of myself why bother? I've accomplished nothing but ignorance. I hate myself for being a failure through bad decisions. And reacting badly to the bad luck