Hi
I've had depression for over 25yrs, from suicide attempts, hospital admissions, relationship break-up, meds, therapy, no meds, and living alone.
I look back and know I've caused my own problems, hurt others (emotionally) through being ill.
The past eats me up constantly. My everyday at home is spent alone. I struggle to get up, eat, and struggle to leave the house, unless I have to for work.
Being alone is destroying me, the depression and anxiety feed off it, making it all worse.