Why does no one care about me? SH/AB TRIGGERS

[Lillyx]

Hi, so recently, I been getting abuse from people in my life, it has been nasty, I reported it to the police, and things are still not doing too good, I am mentally unable to fight for what I think needs to be done but always I feel like I should give up. I been abused in my life I'm 21 and I fight every day to stay alive. Some days I go I don't want to be here anymore but some days I say I'm glad I stayed alive. I self harm and it helps me, I am scared though that one day it will end me. I don't want that, I have a life too live but sometimes I can't live it due to getting abused saying my ex is going to hurt me if I go to the police again. Being raped has shown how much hurt is inside of me, I didn't ask for it I did blame myself but I know it was not my fault. Hello I'm Lilly!

I often find myself crying myself to sleep to see if what's going on in my life is correct unfortunately it is. The mental abuse or emotional attacks is draining me, I feel like the police aren't supporting me, I ring them but then get no response I feel like im going to be abused my whole life.

My head hurts. Why does everyone blame me ��