Sissies united

[Sissy]

Hey. I have been away for a while. Things have been difficult, and I have had barely enough energy to get on with my daily life. I don't want to complain all the time, so I took a small break. That actually was not that small after all. 6 months, and alot has happened. I fell from Baron, got a pretty nasty concussion. Le Dude got something we call tia-attack. Some sort of temporary problem with blood circulation in brain. He just lost feeling from one side of his body, and blood pressure was huge, 215/155. He was taken I took him to er, and he was sent to bigher hospital with an ambulance. After that he has been suffering from panic attacks. I am worried sick, I actually was really afraid. I had this uncontrollable fear of him dying. Alot of other things have been going on, and I have been way too tired to keep contact even with my friends and family. If someone got worried, I do apologise. I hope everyone here is doing fine.

[Jaquaia]

It's good to see you. I'm just sorry you've been finding it tough.

[Suzi]

Oh love! It's so good to see you, I was wondering about you and your boys.

I'm sorry to hear about the fall, have you managed to get back up on him?
How is Le Dude? Is he getting any help?
How are your other boys?

I think you need some group hugs!

[Paula]

Oh wow, hunni that’s a lot to deal with….. big hugs

It’s so good to see you, though

[Sissy]

Yea I got back to saddle pretty fast. Baron was confused himself, he got excited and actually gave me a rodeo bucking me down. I don't trust him the same anymore, but I am still working with him.

My boys are doing fine. Summer break started, and we are having a heat wave coming our way.

Le Dude is getting help. He got medication for his blood pressure, and has not been drinking at all after that trip to hospital. I just worry about those panic attacks.

[Strugglingmum]

Oh Sissy, you really have been through a rough time!!
It's really good to hear from you. I'm glad the boys are well. I hope Le Dude starts to feel better with his blood pressure issue resolving. So frightening for you both. It will take him some time to get over the fright.
How are you coping with it all?

[Sissy]

Right now, I am not really coping at all. It feels like I work on auto pilot, just doing what I must to keep things together. At least I am startin something called emdr therapy to see how deep my problems actually are, and if the root of all can be found, and dug up.

[Suzi]

One of our old team members Jarre had EMDR and found it really, really helpful.
Sweetheart we're here to listen and to help where we can. Just talking about it all might help...

[OldMike]

Hi sissy was thinking we hadn't heard from you for ages, is it really 6 months! My mum suffered from TIA's in later years when she was in her 80's from what I remember a TIA is like a mini stroke and typically only lasts a short time in mums case it affected her balance on one occasion it was like she was speaking in a foreign language which lasted a couple of hours. In Le Dudes case the problem was probably caused by high BP which hopefully should be got under control.

Did something spook Baron causing him to throw you?

I'll send you all my love

[Sissy]

I think he just got frustrated, we trained how to go from trot to canter. He tried and tried, and when it finally happened right, he got abit too excited and bucked. He is in mad physical condition now, and getting quite spicy.