Seeing no way out **SH Trigger**

[Butterfly]

Went for long walks last weekend, including rollerskating. Today (well, yesterday) I didn't go for a walk as it was a bit rainy and windy unfortunately. But was food shopping with my mum as we'll be baking a cake this weekend

[Paula]

Yay for roller skating! Sounds fun

[Suzi]

Roller skating sounds fun! Are you baking a cake for someone's birthday or just for fun!

[Butterfly]

I loove rollerskating (or skating in general) xx
The cake is just for fun - chocolate cake, very yummy

[Suzi]

Chocolate cake always makes things better
Sounds like you've had some positives this weekend, which is awesome!

[Butterfly]

It does! Chocolate cake is really yummy
I did have some positives this weekend, yeah but sadly after a high comes a low. Feeling quite bad again today, lots of intrusive thoughts and just so unhappy and hopeless with everything. Missing my old self a lot today. I wish I could go back in time sometimes... just feeling so unhappy right now and wishing I could just cry

[Suzi]

Can you stop the thoughts and change them into positives? Although you may not be doing x you are now doing y? Or although you thought you couldn't cook you are now baking cakes and making dinner for your Mum?

[Butterfly]

It's hard. The thoughts are so overwhelming and I feel like I need to "solve" things in order to stop them. I could try and distract myself with cooking/baking etc. or just some distraction in general but the thoughts always hit back afterwards..

[Suzi]

But the more you're able to make them stop and think something more positive the better. Of course it's hard love, I wish it wasn't, but it really is. But, you CAN do it.

[Paula]

Unfortunately, it’s not an either/or with negative vs positive. But each time you focus on the positives, it becomes a little bit easier. Until, eventually, you find that the positives outweigh the negatives.