I was thinking and I thought its ok to come out of the private sections every now and then. So I am starting a thread here. Talking about whats on my mind and how I am doing.

Just finished tea and it was a struggle. So to be nice for myself I am in the bathtub now. (no pictures haha). My body is aching.

I keep thinking about all the hobbies I liked and still like but can't be bothered to do them. The list is endless.

Reading, writing, poetry, caligraphy, learning swedish,learning. Sports etc etc.

When I think of all these things they gave me joy and I feel would still give joy. But I truly can not be bothered. And the perfectionisme is something that comes to play as well. And the putting myself down. Its a viscious circle.