Is this a relapse

[Flo]

Everyone has made really valid points. There are different AD's that you can try.I agree with suzi re the anxiety. I've experienced the same as you (many people do). Anxiety feeds off itself itms. The fear, nausea, dry mouth, panic, hyperventilation etc., intensifies when you think you're going out of your mind! Lack of sleep doesn't help. What can help is to get hold of a paper bag that's big enough for you to comfortably breathe in and out of. This way, instead of breathing too much oxygen which feeds the anxiety, breathing in your own carbon dioxide will quieten the anxiety. I've been in the state you are in and it's no picnic...it's terrifying! But clever you to realise that the depression and the thoughts just ISN'T you...it will pass. Something else that might help - well it helped me and helps my son - go on to Amazon and find relaxation CD's. There is one where you can listen to waves breaking on the shore. Get your partner or whoever to buy you some earplugs from a chemist. Open your windows but close the curtains. Concentrate on the CD while breathing in long even breaths. This should help with the panic etc. is there any way or could you afford to make an appointment with a private therapist? A lot of them concentrate on anxiety and depression. I did this for about 8 weeks and it helped me enormously. You won't be in a queue either! The cost varies but it's around £45 an hour depending on where you live. Google them in your area. I understand that not everyone can afford this type of money but even seeing someone once can change things around. It's a case of prioritising sometimes. Keep posting love. you aren't a nuisance...everything you have explained could be me or any of us.