I’ve had an horrendous few weeks. Oh how am I kidding it’s been a lot longer than that but the past few weeks have pretty much broken me. I don’t really know where to start I just know I can’t do this on my own anymore.

I’m sick and tired of being sick and tired. I may be an independence person but I’m fed up with having to deal with so much on my own. I just want somebody to care about me for a change but everyone else is a priority over me. I’m only good for what I can give and then I’m on my own again. I will admit I’m not the best when it comes to opening up about my feelings but that’s in part because in my family nobody really cares about my feelings. It’s like I’m more of an inconvenience (unless someone needs a favour) so nobody thinks to ask about how I’m doing.

I don’t even know if coming back here is a good idea but I’m running out of options and I just need to vent.