Chapter 2: the book addict rejoins the world

[Paula]

That sounds so positive. Tbh, love, the only way to stop her trying to turn them against you would be to meet them ASAP. Let them make their own minds up

[Mira]

I agree. The children will be so happy with you. No plotting or plans or weirdness. But more of the normal stuff. Caring about people and making a home instead of wrecking things. And thats going to be a stable Enjoyable factor. And that will be because of you both. And love ofcourse.

[Suzi]

You brought tears to my eyes with that. I don't see myself as anything special, I never have. I'm scared that they'll hate me. I'm scared that when she finds out they know about me she will try and turn them against me and I hate being scared all the time. I hate not knowing.

It did amuse me that James put his dad on the spot last night. He said the look on his face when he walked in and J said to Thomas "Grandpa likes Kerry! You can ask him"

Those children aren't going to know what's hit them. Someone who actually cares about them, what's going on in their lives, what they think, what they are doing, someone to reassure them when things are hard, a constant support.... Honestly I can't imagine anyone better....
Strike while the iron's hot - suggest to J that you get to meet them soon! Maybe set up a picnic with a trip to the railway museum?

[magie06]

I agree. It's time to pull that nettle and get the first meeting over and done with. You are going to be nervous, the kids will be nervous and J will be nervous. But next week it's December and the children will be practicing for a school play of some sort. The excitement of Christmas will hit them and surely it's better to meet them sooner rather than later?

[Jaquaia]

I'll just have to wait and see when he decides to arrange me meeting them.

[Paula]

There’s nothing stopping you gently encouraging .....

[Jaquaia]

It never gets me anywhere

[Paula]

Really? Or do you really not see that, even if he says no, it still tends to happen anyway ....

[Jaquaia]

To be honest, after all the "it has to be right for the children" I'm wondering what about me? He said about logistics and him working but I pointed out he has the 2 weekends before Christmas off... "maybe"

I hate not knowing. It makes me feel like everyone has control over my life but me.

[Paula]

Then maybe you need to take some control and insist that this is the right thing to do before Christmas. The kids are important but so are you.