Originally Posted by
Nick310771
Hi Penguin - I found myself in a similar situation and was too scared to speak to my GP - so I wrote a letter saying all the things you are expressing - they called me and got me to go in and the GP I saw had a personal imnterest in mental health and he told me something that may apply to you - to read a book called 'Depression - Curse of the Strong' - it was an eye opener - depression can come about from being strong and being there for everyone else before yourself ..we dont do it consciously but sub consciously and eventually my 'fuse blew' but it took me far too long to seek help - the GP is a great place to start.
Your dedication to the gym i a massive positive as is the fact you have held down a job for so long and not quit...you care for your dogs and partner - all positives - you, I think, just need a little help taking care of YOU, for a change. The hardest step is the first one but the most important one - asking for help takes immense strength not weakness - you seem to be someone that would really benefit from that first step - telling us on here is massive and pat yourself on the back for doing that ,..talking to your GP about your feelings - you wont be the first or last and they want people like you to go in and help yourself becuse once you start your journey of recovery you can add so much to the next person on here that thinks the same way as you do now and we all did at some stage...getting it out to people that listen, hear and understand is extremely cathartic...go for it and report back - think of it as bench pressing that extra 10kilos...!!