Hi Suzi, I definitely will let you know how it goes. Whilst I am there I am going to ask for help for quitting cocaine too.
I have found a narcotics anonymous group near me so will go there too.

I said I would survive till I get this appointment but over the last 2 weeks I have felt the worst I have ever done. All I keep thinking about is death. I finished work yesterday at 5, got home at 6 and been in bed since, now it’s saturday 4pm and I’m still in bed. And I have also been thinking i have never been truly happy. The last time I was jhappy I was probably about 9 years old, just before my dad was murdered.